serenaaaaa

2009-08-09T19:19:00.000-07:00

BLOGGER sucks 2dmax!
IM now @

kisslovelust.onsugar.com!!

follow me there!!

2009-08-02T07:06:00.001-07:00

2009-08-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

2009-07-30T06:42:00.000-07:00

Omg, why cant i login to learningportal shit.
This is testing my patience, i cant w8 to see my timetable...!!!
Going to art school isnt as easy as i thought.

Blog more later,

COM"ON LEARNING PORTAL!

fuck, even blogger treats me the same.
or, isit internet connection?

2009-07-28T00:57:00.000-07:00

OHNOOOOO!!! i lost my spare sim card! *panicky*
how how how? :(

anw, i've gotten a new phone alrdy.
Now, i realised that my room has 5 phones. -4 black 1 white.
All kinda suck except the new one,duh!

After gotten my phone, went to eat than shop.
Randomly,(looking in mirror)

Me: I hate my looks, im so ugly, dont you think so?
Mummy: (looked @ me, pause &smiled) why you're asking me stupid qns?
You're my child, of cos you'll be beautiful in my eyes.
Me: *smiles widely*

omg. How stupid can i be.
But this peaks my day up.
It's been so long since i've heard appreciative words esp from my mom.
I guess she really knows her daughter well.
I've been feeling so down cos ppl have been pulling my self esteem down.
So well, a mother will always love their child i suppose.
I've been starting retarded conversations w mummy today.
Like, 'You shouldnt give birth to a child if you know you couldnt provide good life"
Stuff like this, i should kill myself.
*slap self x97654321234567890987654! *
haha! ohwells, gimme a break man!

&yesterday, i went to IMM on bus 66 (which i can take to sch for an hr too).
The travel time is 2hr 30mins from bedok to jurong east.
Feeling so weird there, no sense of belonging, ppl there have no ***** sense(no offense :X)
Aftermath just took the train home.

Do you know?
I like intellectual conversions.
HAHA!
spells r.a.n.d.o.m.

2009-07-26T21:27:00.000-07:00

Why i still dont know how to post pics on blogger when ppl do??
O.m.g, 911! howwwwwwwwwwwww?
It's been long time since i post pics yeah!

Anw.. ytd was gr8!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CMH!
I was supposed to met wife @ 3, ended up meet late.
Late= Cmh already left hse too.
Before that i was so panicky that i could even reach wife!
Like how wife couldnt reach me the night before.
Both of us told the same thing to cmh, ''I couldnt get hold of ....!" HAHA
Okay.. both of us reached vivo first. Going ard in search of balloons.
Well, it wasnt long later that cmh actually caught up w us @ vivo.
&so i lied. AGAIN. So many times ytd. -.-
Both me &wife went toy shop, &i 've got another slime, in green! hehe
Walked till we found the balloons, just when we wanted to give up :D
The shop assistant attitude sucky, but nvm.
We have bday card for cmh, but no pens, so we just took the shop's pen to use, while i distracted the assistant. HAHA!
Anw, we went to find Cmh, (we were late for 30mins!) sorry girl!
Wanted to scare her but instead i was the one screaming. LoL(because she saw us alrdy-.-)
Well, we went to play w the water, than Mache for dinner. Hell lots of ppl.
Than, off to Henderson waves.
God, that place is heaven. Beautiful.
Pictures soon! cmh.
& wife's Oh.So.Great idea, we wore dress there! HaHa!
But nice, compliments the atmosphere. (:
&yes, cmh even made friends w a group of ppl there for helping them take jumpshots photo w her canon.
The walk was short. But mainly was for taking pics.
Thanks to Steph, We. LOVE. that place! (Y)

Good Good Day to end.
I trained back w them to Tamp, just to see Ken.
Practically SEE only. Cause never even talked. LOL

It's a 3, 2, 1 countdown to orientation from today.
& a week to school starts.
*excited of course*
Finally.

2009-07-25T20:45:00.000-07:00

Tired, tired, tired.

I hate it when ppl call me @ 4 alrdy.

Enough, cos i've been sleeping earlier now.

Maybe cos the past two days was a blast.

Friday, met up w Dev @ bedok inter @4.

We headed to Ion orhard.

Than to Orhard center to camwhore like nobody's business.

Ppl were looking @ us thinking we were idiots.

Hahaha, thats what girls do.

Than we headed to Vivo, &i took back my punchcard!

Thankyou Dev for going w me man!

I wouldnt dare to do it alone.

Later we bought shaker fries, &cold storage for drinks.

Suddenly i saw jellybeans in there, felt like eating. Why would i wan to buy the whole pack to satisfy my cravings right?

Ate from the self take corner.

Damn cheapos, whatever! It was closing so not alot ppl saw! HaHaHa!

The other time was @ plaza sing cold storage, we ate raisins when it was abt to close too! hahahaa

Than, we settled @ level 3 to eat, &camwhored alot too.

Even the auntie walked past, volunteered to take for us!

Till 12, cabbed home.

(dev owes me alot pics- upload NOW if you see this)

cos i cant w8 to see those hilarious pics! :D

Next day, Sat.

Woken up by my mother. I was sleeping so soundly!

Wells, got to get up to prepare lunch catch up w my uncle's family @ Marriot Hotel. -lunch buffet.

Food was a thumbs up(Y)

Talked talked talked.

Aftermath, goodbye. See you next yr. Haha!

Went to shop , (in town again!)

Went Tangs. Shopped. Mummy damn sad cos sister doesnt want to give her sup card for Tangs. LOL!

But Grandma was happy cos we gotten her a Tangs card.

Again, Went Ion orhard! ( dont need remind, it's the third time!!)

With sister only..

Went Wisma too..

Only time w her man! Wooooo!

We talked alot stuff. Now i can see advantages of having an older sis. :)

Parogon to collect her card, than, poof!

Off to meet her friends @ Ion.

Till 8pm, settled down @ Weelock's place, BigO w 5 of her friends.

Then, coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee till midnight &cabbed home.

Well, after meeting &listening to sis friends, i had a good reflection.

Made me think more, & more.

[reality check]

These days, i've becoming more optimistic?

hahaha ,good thing.

Im thinking now, growing up feels good, instead of a pain!

Hahaha, & another good thing is, Im managing my finance better these days!!

Kids(me) are sad, cos we better to go thru times to be a better person.

We have alot to learn.

(now i know why adults always say that-.-)

But @ least, within my long hols, i felt that i've matured, abit. hehe

& im sucha town girl!

Whats more when school gona start?

*anticipation*

Conclusion for past 2 days, 2 words, Good buys. :DDD

Later~Cmh celebration.

Till then, Im gona sleep earlier tonight!

2009-07-23T21:03:00.000-07:00

Blogger sucks.

Thought @ least i've got pictures to upload, blogger went crazy. hahaha

To recap past days, i saw KOBE 2 days back, went to ION orhard, not bad.

Ytd, met my wife to go Art friend to get my school stuff.

Was holding to the pink list, & the shop asst walked towards us & told us the items were place all @ one corner, so convenient for us!

So obviously, they know im Lasalle yr 1 foundation.

Than again, the items they offered outside were not so chio after we shopped inside. HaHaHa

Since im studying Visual arts, my things got to be visually pleasant to me too right? LoL!

All the small items & everything, adds up to $200 + alrdy! & not all bought. (left some)

Buying materials for school reminds me that im going to school, duh!

As in since sec 3 i bought many books for school kinda feeling. hehe

They were all hell heavy!! Carry till my hands were red!

Than we went to take our passport photos downstairs bras basah.

Meanwhile waiting for photos to be ready, we went to Mac, No more cinnemon melts alrdy?!

I haven tried yet ! How can?!

Saw some art students there. Obvious that they are.

I was repeating like i always, "art students are so cool~~ "

Steph: "thanks uh!"

LOL!

Than, went to Toy muesum to check out the prices.

Students get 50% off, so gona wait till i get my student pass.

Also, bought my new pet, slime!

hehe, looks so gross!

So after collecting our photos, ( me so ugly), wanted to head to school.

End up, we were @ arcade playing!

''House of dead" damn shiok.

By the time we were done, headed to Starbucks, Coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Shiok.

Called Lasalle, about submitting photos for student card, they said we have to make a trip down.

Steph: 'what time do you close?'

Staff : 'closing now.'

HAHA! We were suppose to go school, ended up playing & so, we have to go back other day. SMART.

As usual, we camwhore alot.

Than later, ate dinner w Steph mummy, home.

Bugis has alot alot alot of food.

So once school starts, no worries -.-

When i came home, i weigh the materials, Hell Crazy! It's freaking 6 kg!

So that explains why my hands were red till 4 am, im still complaining to steph that.

My hands haven exercise for a long time, No Stamina.

Velda lost her phone ytd!!

I just met Steph @ soup resturant.

If im home, sure chiong down. Sorry!

But hp once lost means gone forever uh.

If not i could have gotten back all my phone alrdy. Damn sad.

Gona meet Dev later.. So long haven met her alrdy. Woah!

&& i realised that you cant get sick when you want to, it comes unexpectedly.

So now, Flu & sore throat. SUCKS.

Till then, byebye!

2009-07-19T09:17:00.000-07:00

Been eating fucking lots these 2 days.

ytd was steamboat, than morning, went to Dian Xiao Er @ Tamp1.

Finally after walking ard @ tamp for the past few days,

did some serious shopping @ tampines today.

I love this Sunday most.

Usual Sundays are for family day.

Only today, i totally felt it. (plus cherylene is w us today!)

After eating together, we went to shop for IT gadgets.

Mainly for me & Cherylene.

Like, finally! *fingers cross first*

Than went shopping for wallet for Cherylene, ended up me, falling in love with Guy Laroche.

The moment i saw it, i knew i own it.

It's simply so pretty which made me melt.

I like everything about it,

the colour, the brand, the smell.

One word, Gorgeous.

Than, had teatime @ Coffee bean.

I love family day, where we sit tgt talking..

5 of us, cousins & aunt, uncle.

All of us had drink & shared a cheesecake.

Aftermath, only me &cousin went to shop.

Than, home.

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God, if there's one word to describe today, thats Love.

Family love. Nothing beats the love of a family.

I have never felt like this for a long time.

Being the youngest, & doted on.

I get everything i want, in my way.

But thats not what i really want.

There's still a sad soul within me, noone uds....

Maybe it's time i need a professional counsellor.

Cos i feel like im falling back to the past me..

But this time, worse.

cos sometimes, i really really feel like d y i n g.

& no one takes me seriously...

2009-07-18T11:16:00.000-07:00

how i wish it's my birthday now..

Cos i can then make a wish, or many many wishes.

Tho wishes can be made anytime,

wouldnt it be so sweet to wish on a birthday?

which commands within that year before you turn older the next year..

Well, i just ate supper before i planned to sleep!

Fml totally. grrrr...

sucks, plus an odd timing to sleep everyday.

SHAKE HEADS.

Btw, every night when i go to bed..

same thoughts rush into my mind keeping them fresh awake.

im so bothered by alot of things currently.

somethings which makes me v sad, & happy.

NO. more of sad & frustration.

But ohwells, i hope this is part of growing up.

Or isit just me?!

Then, i'll just say,

Fuck My Life.

haha

2009-07-15T08:04:00.000-07:00

This is so frustrating!

Im taking one step forward, two steps backward.

Im dying of this annoy, i cant control my mood too..

2009-07-15T03:09:00.000-07:00

GRRRRRRRR!!! ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!

i hate them to come back.

i hate them to stay w me.

i loathe them.

pls, pls, pls,

how to get them out of my life pls?

2009-07-13T09:32:00.000-07:00

Everybody is getting insomia!

That includes me totally.

I cant believe ytd was my worst.

I went to bed 12am.

Guess what?!

5am &still not asleep!

I was staring into space , thinking alot of things.

Sighs, sleeping habits gotten haywire sucks seriously.

One day will be 2 hrs, another day 14 hrs.

It's driving me crazy.

I just wana sleep @ 11 & get up 8am the next day.

That difficult?

How will i adapt to school once it starts?

*sighsss!*

16 days to orientation,

20 more days to school start.

one word: YAY

14 days before school start, imma buy my materials.

Fits the bill for my time procrastinate grace.

& now?

appreciating the art of slacking before the rush hr starts when school bell rings.

hahahehehahaho!

night babies!

2009-07-12T09:42:00.000-07:00

Hell stupid.

I bought the bottle of toner w/o realizing it's the tester bottle. Fml

Anyway, im happy/sad today.

Caught 'obsessed', it's a thumbs up to me.

The whore in the show kept my 'fuck' spilling all out. (refraining)

Saw celeste today after the show.

the previous day saw xubin.

Who's next?

haha

2009-07-09T06:03:00.001-07:00

hehe, finally got my lazy bums to change my blogskin.

Life's so sick, need some changes somewhere.

So this is it.

2009-07-09T01:46:00.000-07:00

omg,how can i make my life a better day to live each day??

i hate everything that i did, said, doing. EVERYTHING!!!

*cries, Cry out loud!*

i hate myself, you hate me too.

Help me, send some angel into my life pls.

I cant tolerate anymore.

The pain of growing up sucks.

2009-07-04T23:13:00.006-07:00

I UPLOADED THOSE PICS DIDNT END UP HERE.

WTF MAN! -PISSED.

oh yeah, im starting school on 3 august!! double yay!

30th july will be orientation!

best is that, i can make ezlink card alrdy!

haha, gona take new passport photo!! (w long hair:D)

im so happy that school's starting!!!!

my baby is coming out!-.-

2009-06-27T09:54:00.000-07:00

Omfg, scare the hell out of me just now!

I was fucking stalked by a black guy from cityhall to bedok!

I just w Dev when i saw him.. then when i got out of the mrt station, he went up to me!

I tried to ignore, than he raised his voice saying that im rude.

He just wanted to say 'hi'.

I said HI back, he said, 'why are you so scared?'

'Not like im gona kidnap you ...''

& said ' i dont go up randomly to people to say hi, i just admired your style thats y..''

I could even smell the alcohol on him!

I was so fucking scared man!

than @ the interchange, he said he wanted to take to bedok reservoir but dont know which bus.

Suddenly, he asked me..

'can i touch you there?'

Mother fucker!

Luckily there was a group of people there, who kinda saw what happened.

than they helped me divert his attention..

i saw the bus, &dashed up.

Then, i saw that fucker looking ard.. than headed back to Mrt direction.

I have yet to thank that group of people! :(

hope they know that im thankful cos i looked so afraid just now!!

God, what a day!

IM fucking sad/angry to be a subsitude only....

2009-06-26T22:04:00.000-07:00

Omg, .. right now, i fucking wana grow up quickly.

No. Maybe i'll enjoy every bit of life after 18.

Seriously, i cant wait to start school, meet new people &move on w life.

Everybody in poly &jc has moved on alrdy! Here am i lagging in time.

*Double sighs!*

One more mth...

This 9 mths of hols is enough time for me to give birth alrdy..-.-

HAHA;cold joke -.-

2009-06-22T05:05:00.000-07:00

Since im so bored now, shall blog abt last week.

Mon morning, met w Velda freaking early to go town.

The shops werent even opened yet! HaHa

After buying my stuff, we cabbed to tamp to meet S for movie.

''Land of the Lost''. It was alright w a tweety bit of hilarious.

Than got to back home to get ready to go for Sound I event.

Met Mark, than Dev @ Clark Quay train station, than proceeded to Starbucks to meet Luke &Zhiwei before going The Arena.

The start was local music. We kinda bored so went to The Clinic for a drink.

Back again @ The Arena, it was fucking loads of people.

They could have done better crowd control tho.

When it ended, the four of us, Dev,M,L,Me hung out again.

Like that time, we stayed till dawn tgt talking crap the night away...

Next day, tues, was 4e5 class gathering.

Before that i had few hours of sleep before i went to dentist for my retainers.

@3.Met soo early to wait for people who are late before proceeding to Giant, than ECP for BBQ.

HEHE, i miss 4e5.

But than i had to leave early.

Than i ended up @ some uniform party w Carol Chinleong &Dev.

Than we went Simpang bedok early morning before home.

Weds, met Steph &Jas early!

We went town to shop, &Camwhored alot before i went back home.

Omg, till than i felt my batt went flat.(felt so sick)

Thurs i've got to work. Imagine soo lack of sleep, i had (flu for a week!) coughing, retainers on my mouth, mens came that day!

Totally sucks to work man!

In the night, wanted to go CO PRSS camp, ended up @ airport the whole night w Dev.

We talked so much, while she cried, i couldnt. Just that im so fucking sad too.

I wanted to get sick,even worst.

So i had Fries w more than 10 over packets of chili w/o water, im still not freaking sick.

Anw, we caught up alot eh?

Friday &sat was supposed to work.

But HACK MAN! I msg boss to say im v sick w 2 days mc. She told me to rest well.

HEHE. Finally i can go out to shop on SAT EVENING!

fucking happy to join the crowd. (im so deprived)

Bought 3 chio shoes from charles&keith.

Caught 'i love you,man'.

Guys should catch that show tgt man.

HAHA cabbed back.

(i wasted ALOT $$$ on cabs man:'( )

Sun! family day!

Went out w my lovely cousins from US.

Brought them shopping.

Bought books for myself.(HAHA)

I had so much to talk w Lobelia cos she lives in US,

talks abt Music, Gossips, Clothings.

Arghhhhhhh! She made me fucking wana live there man!!! :(

Why im not born there??!

I wana live in.. Manhattan New York or LA hollywood man!

Anw, today is morning. I slept till 4 plus pm from 1am.

HAHAHA, just that i woke up @ 10, i had terrible headache &felt like vomitting.

So i went back to sleep.

Im so sleep deprived too. This week gona have another blast, so i need enough sleep.

ohwells, thats all.

I hate you Serena!

2009-06-20T10:20:00.000-07:00

Im fucking traumatized right now.

Immediately when i came online, & found out from S.

Seriously i went blank.

I just splurge on 3 shoes 100+ @a shot today.

What was i thinking?

How do i live now?

Slaps self x983278743560134697457214789456201235...

Wake up now!!!

2009-06-19T05:58:00.000-07:00

NEGLECTED.

these days were so busy.

Out day &night continuously. Im having serious lack of sick &fell sick.

Sick? i think it's not serious enough. I wish i had swine flu. LOL.

I had so much chilli, so little water, but still not sick enough! *MF*

&messing up bio clock made by eating habit fucked up too.

Anyway, today i finally stayed home for the whole day tho i had work.

Seriously, the world is so sad now.

Everyone ard me is SAD.

which made me more depressing. STAB ME!

Life this hols is like: shop,parties,chalet,bbq,beach,work.

so yeah, let pics do the talking on FB.

ciaos, im MF-ing sad.

Let the world heals as time goes by.

2009-06-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

i feel so traumatized today!

i was out 14 hrs, spent hella!

waited patiently all the time..

i should blog abt today.. with a pic.

just to rmb:

$800 on dental

$312 on hair

$56 on eyes

$15 on food

& i went back home w/o a shopping bag!!

2009-06-06T08:38:00.000-07:00

As for tues post, read Stephnana blog! HAHA (crazy shit)

Ytd, watched Dance Subaru, OMG, it's so nice i think i can watch it alot times in cinema.

Rate 5 stars, touching, TWO thumbs up!!!

Go Watch Go Watch!!!

Than Dev n i plan failed, like, Again?

She crushed over @ my place.

Both of us were like gossiping @ 4 am.

Both of us slept on a single size bed.

How? not side by side, but, opposite direction! LOL!

& mother fucker, got to work this morning.

Slept little, woke up to work, while she went home than gona work 3pm.

That concludes all.

Im only working for 3-4 times per week.

&its ultra gr8! im lovin it!

2009-06-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

i had 4 days off straight!

so sunday, was @sentosa celebrating bro's bday-eat & drink.

played frisbee &volleyball. than i decided to go for a getaway trip ard 18-21june?(nt confirm)

monday-slacked @ home than went out to catch Angels &demons in the evening!

Tues- tanjong pagar(mom), city hall-suntec,marina square, raffles shopping mall, tm(steph), bugis-junction, street, Lasalle,(wanlin) Home!

i travelled quite many places today, & i realised my ezlink card was expired ytd!

Imma adult now. LoL

Ohyeah, i bought alot of stuffs today!!

I was sooooo happy, now i want MORE!-FML

& now i know my cousin's comingggg!

I have some people to entertain finally.

My holidays are super boring i wana start school so badly!!!

Anyway summer's here, gona hit the beach, & GSS's here's too!

WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO! i wana quit my job to enjoy full time. LOL

Meanwhile, tmr i'll be attending sch!! hahahaha-rather excited. -.-

Than next day, WORK.

Im going to make over soon, SOON!

I hate my fucking boring life!

SICK & TIRED

Wanlin, cheerup! Curse that fucking person! HUMPH!!!

Im always here to catch u when u fall okay!!!

LOVE U.

2009-05-31T20:09:00.000-07:00

It came & went.

Like the wind just blew across.

Initially i was relieve because it was tiring.

Than.. i felt that little part of me is still lingering..

Im not a supergirl, i wanted to cry out loud, but i couldnt.

It felt even worst. Even more when i saw them tgt.

''Dont forget'' was my fave song.

I used to sing over again.

Now i wish u will not forget abt us.

I believe im fine, like always.

2009-05-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking alot, i guess.

Thanks to Wanlin! hahaha, makes me a happier person!

(: love u!

really really, talking to you makes me happy temporary..

how i wish i can talk forever, talk away all the problems.

that would be wonderful to the max!

hahaha

xoxo

2009-05-22T10:08:00.000-07:00

suddenly, i feel emo.

The only thing that i can turn to is.. my blog.

why u feel down, u think that everything is going against u?

seriously,...

sth went wrong in my life.

FUCK THAT!

i dont feel like living now.

2009-05-18T18:37:00.000-07:00

After a super long time, ...

i need to post.

[wanlin post on 11may.]

Recently, i've been working because i've fucking no $$$.

I've been so damn poor, i manage to not spend @ all when i go out! {WOW!}

So this good habit must keep on going! hahaha

Anw pay hasnt arrive yet too,.. Sighs!

I've been working @ vivo Tangs selling lingerie: Passionata

Working there is fucking boring because it's @ the corner where very little people walks there!

The lingerie are fucking ex too. Who the fuck wants to buy when elle's bra is behind selling so cheap?!LoL!

kay...thats all for now first! (:

xoxo

ps:i miss u'll!

2009-05-04T05:18:00.000-07:00

im not contended now, im never am.

Im not contended the way people are contended with themselves.

People are already doing something accomplished during the holidays.

Here am i, doing nothing.

No school, No work, No savings.

Almost no ALLOWANCE, but luckily after negotiation, im getting it TWO weeks later.

If there's a knife beside me now, i'll slash myself.

I've been dreaming about anything, everything & doing anything, nothing about it.

I see someone, a role model, an inspiration that i wana be.

That person i feel i can relate to.

She's got everything that i want my life to be.

This sucks, it just totally make me so depressed & a green eye monster.

Maybe i should do something now,

but procrastination aint helping.

Hopefully tmr will be a better day.

Im starting work AGAIN.

#but...

going the wrong track#

sighhhhhhhhs!

2009-05-03T04:24:00.000-07:00

Rare times like this..

taking picture w naked face.

smiling w my brace. ( last color on me!)

&&&&&, i can tie ALL my hair alrdy!

Like how i look like in secondary 1!

hahahahahaaa

*preparation pic b4 i take braces out!!:D

2009-05-02T21:03:00.000-07:00

Just as when i thought the Blissful Girl was living her live happily,

now her live has turned haywire again.

Why is it that when there's ups, we have to go down again?

In order to get up again?

Than life is just so tiring.

To add on, we have to please everybody around us.

Building your own armor, to hide our imperfections & to protray a good image to others.

Well, if u think someone is disgraceful, shameless?

Reflect yourself. Doesnt everyone has their own 'secret'.

Something vulnerable u wouldnt want others to know.

But when it's let out, people will start to judge or discriminate.

Eg Edison Chen. Just that he's under the media, his state is worst. But that doesnt mean there aint others who r like that, or maybe in a different way.

This makes us all horrible,disappointing.

You think everyone despite any religions who claim they're 'holy' can live their whole life like Mother Theresa? CLEAN.

By dwelling in our world of misery, we should empathize with others, instead of pointing fingers @ others, blaming the world to make them feel miserable.

Who doesnt have a bad day?

If everyone doesnt have the mentally that ''oh im having a bad day, empathise my bad attitude''when others might probably having a hard time too, the world would be a better place.

Unfortunately, this is reality. Everyone is so selfless? I dont think so.

LIFE, is so hard to uds.

We can die w/o understanding.

People who found enlightenment?

See Ming Li fa shi of Ren Ci organisation?

Life is just one's perspective.

My perspective is a sin, we just got to take responsibility of it.

May it be happy or sad, human's nature.... is a SIN.

That's why when God made the world, he created Adam & Eve.

Both of them ate the forbidden apple, & so human are the descendants of Sin.

So the point is, God made the world peaceful & perfect nice for us.

But it's the Sins that overwhelm us that made life so tough.

Blame ourselves, we need to live this human cycle till the world ends.

Unless there's a hero who saves the world?

Than again, this is REALITY.

We got to face the ugly reality.

&live it.

2009-05-02T07:18:00.000-07:00

FUCK.

Parents dont have the rights to infer how their children spend the hard earned $$$$ that they(child) earned themselves.

-pissed.

2009-05-01T22:28:00.000-07:00

Mood :

Agrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Frustrating.

2009-05-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

Continued from ytd: should check out steph's blog. Btw, i couldnt recognise her twice! LoLs

Well, we planned to go to Esplanade library but it's not open due to LABOUR DAY!

Many people were like sitting ard open the library.

So we ended up @ Marina Square's Changing Appetites.

Look @ her, she's studying hard. (that was supposed to b candid!)

& me, was being spastic.

Later we went to meet Dev's friend, Amanda & friends to a pub, Love the world @ spore's flyer.

Got to know quite a few students taking design @ Tp, yr 2/3?

There, we ate & played games. Playing games was what got me high. HAHA

Mafia & scream mainly

We were like screaming while the band was playing, kinda rude, but everyone's talking too?

Left, cabbed home & online.

Every week take cab. Agrhhhhh.

How i wish im a fucking RICH BRAT.

morning, y am i not ZZZzzzz now?!

Ciaos!

2009-04-30T09:05:00.000-07:00

Look! Im seriously doing sth & not emo-ing while she's camwhoring!! haha

Was @ starbucks drinking! Dark mocha-YUM.

Say hello to my vintage clip!!!

thats all 4 now, it's over my sleeping time!! gosh.

2 b continued tmr. Will be @ the airport ''studying''.

Ciaos<3

2009-04-28T08:07:00.000-07:00

Went to watch Friday 13 with Dev @ Cineleisure after her lec.

OMFG man. Freaked out. Totally.

The show is simply all about killing. Gross killing.

It has nothing to do with bad luck or sth on the friday 13.

Just that there's 13 people who died.

I felt like puking &leave halfway the show!

The plot is that people who went there got killed.

@ least for 2 couples, they managed to enjoy sex before death. hahaha

the rest, their death were so not worth.

Anyway it's a M18 show.

My NC16 & M18 were watched b4 im actually ripe age!

These are the cheap thrills of growing up.

Once u're grown up, just laugh @ ureself.

HAHA! it's just nothing.

Well, my day was freaked out by the bloody gross scene.

Ewwwwwwwwwww.

xoxo,S

2009-04-26T23:54:00.000-07:00

Internet connection was terrible ytd night.

4 under the roof were trying to connect to the wireless in the house.

So i backed out cos i can use my lappy anytime of the day. (im F-ing freeee )

Yesterday, went to bowl @ Safra Tampines. 2 games.

*shake heads* sighhhhs.

Was a quick one tho, so watched the others(professional) bowl.

Later ate @ Minds cafe while playing Sequence.

Good place to chill out.

Than HOME. Safra is so near my house i think. LoLs

Anyway, watched the Sfactor when im home.

Second time i've watched it. & i still think it's fucking lame show.

If the productions want to make it like Singapore's (American Next Top Model) kind of show,

It's still a far cry from it dude! Omg, but i still watched it. I like KayKay.

I slept so damn ealy ytd since so long. before 12?

seriously im so lethargic these days. I feel like im 'sick', but i dont fall sick. Even if EVERYONE ard me is sick. Im not infected!

Now, im back from Dental appt this morning.

Good news: this is probably the last month im wearing my braces!!! (unless i take ultra good care of it)

hahahahaa,(over the top) !

I cant wait to take it off! Like, seriously?! No more tongue cutting! No more ulcers!

Just pain free , straight teeth:D then, i can finally smile with my teeth :D

Last payment next month*

later, i went to the library & borrowed books.

Seriously, i love to read. HAHA

But not novels & storybooks(exceptional for some)

Ohyeah, i was reading NO JOURNEY TOO TOUGH by Willian Tan ytd b4 i went out.

Anyone from PRSS forgotten abt him?

I rmbed i was so fascinated by he's life story &i sat right in front of the stage.

He's my inspiration still; he's disability wasnt a hinder to him, he went far.

I admire him totally.

now,My ear hurts! Internal bleeding & stuff.

This ear is always so troublesome.

Thats for now. gtg,ciaos!

2009-04-25T10:26:00.000-07:00

I had so much time spent bonding with my family today :D

Early morning, woken up by sischia to go Mac breakfast tgt.

Supposedly, im gona join them to go Pulau Ubin.

im so emarrassed, but i dont know how to cycle!

Maybe i know, on even road. But there is kinda advance.

so,i did roomkeeping & beauty naps instead.

Later, had Sushi Tei @ Tampines 1 with sis, M, bro & cousin 4 dinner.

Man! We had so much laughter there.. Hahahaha

& the food, mediocre for the sashimi. Paragon's standard is wayyy better.

U should try ''Hotate''. Love it. This time, we ordered cold green tea soba. yum. & alot of food!

I wanted to vomit! laughs!

Salmon Mendtai, soft shell crab maki(best sushi)

Ohyeah, the Pumpkin icecream sucks! We had to play 'zhong ji mi ma' to clear it. Haha!

Back home, mom sis M & me played pictionary.

I was same team with mummy.

Hahaha! Her actions are total retard dude!

Well, we did alot of cheating. SHhhhhhh!

But we didnt win tho. 2 rounds- 1 drawing 1 acting

till now,1.30am. soooo tried. But i kinda love how the time pass today.

Ciaos, i love my family vvv much. :D

2009-04-24T09:18:00.000-07:00

im sucha cry baby. (for this week only)

mon- damn pekcek while doing the withdrawing

Tues- Didnt bring keys & angry w mom(small case)

weds- smiles!(:

Thurs- _________.

Fri- talk with dev(both break down)

Such a loser this week. I think i broke my record.

Esp this month, previously was gong2 funeral.

God! Stop it Serena!

Everytime when i cry, i'll think of Dev's 'so weak' & i'll try subsiding.

Well girls do cry. But im gona be strong.

Im so embarrass typing here, no choice, cos i can spill my thoughts n remind myself not to do again. Unless u dont read! Argh..

Today, had a heart talk w Dev. Hopefully all our misunderstanding or rather problems cleared.

If u(dev) happen to read this,

I seriously soooo sorry. I know sorry is easy to say. As if nothing has happened.

But i'll try my best to change, still improving.

Im the one so self centered. I didnt know that i've been hurting u.

After today, I think i suck totally for being a friend. (tho im never good) still,...

im so gulity for not being there 4 u when u need somebody.

I swear u can count on me if anything happens :X !

xoxo,

Serena

2009-04-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

Thank you everyone who wished me my birthday:D

This year i only wana rmb i had people from engine sch(sengie classmates) singing birthday song, cutting cake and receiving present from wanzhuang,hf,dev @open plaza :D

& also the food @ Bakerzin T1.

Later,..saw Carol n ended up @ LJS.

17 already, the age of my fav no.

i hope my wishes will come true.

Happy Birthday to myself:D

Seriously, i felt so upset that i locked myself in the room & cry when i reached home.

I felt so separated from u'll.

Should i be the lead today okay?

2009-04-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

Yessssss! My room is finally done!

This is the best birthday gift from mom, ever.

I know she did alot, alot more than i did for myself.

So here i am to recognise her efforts. hopefully one day in future i'll read this again.

Even yesterday, she rushed all the way home because i didnt bring my keys out.

Tho i know i love her, i will never know how to say it out.

I even prepared Mother's day gift alrdy! hahaha

xoxo,

Serena

Editted @ 12.40am.

Ohmy..why am i so lethargic these days.

I took nap @ 5 plus to 8, & now im tired again when i only woke up @ 9 plus.

i just received 2 gifts.

A pink mouse and red laptop case. In my birthday room:D pretty!

i think im gona ZZZZzzzzzz now.

2009-04-21T09:18:00.000-07:00

recent updates abt me:

i've officially withdrawn out of Temasek Poly on 20th April, on the first day of sch.

@ the same time, i am also officially offered a place @ Lasalle, which i just received.

Between ytd n tonight.. i was thinking..what if Lasalle dont send me my enrolment? and that i've withdraw out of tp alrdy! i'll be between air!

So now.. im @ ease.

Well, all the long, i so much wanted to design field.

I remember secondary 2 when one night i decided that i want to get into Lasalle because of a childish reason: The name of the school is cool. (other than it's a design sch)

Than tho i was interested in fashion design.. I didnt spoke to anyone abt it.

I think it's because i feel inferior to those who took art.. or are more fashionable than me;whatever~

Only till sec 3, i started to share with everyone, when Mrs tan (home teacher) told mummy about my hol assignment: do a presentation on our interest. Mummy immediately told her that im gona do abt Fashion. I only told her my passion & she said out!

so thats when the ball starts rolling.

Than sec 4, i aimed to go Tp for the only course:apparel design if not Nafa.

Never have i considered Lasalle bcos i have to produce a portfolio, which i dont take art in sch.

So i decided to work hard to get into Tp through my O's score. (15 pts for L1B4)

I worked hard, not smart. People reading this must have thought im so stupid.

It's so achievable, but not for me.

People worked hard last min can get higher marks than i did.

When O's result were out, i broke down as if my tear bag was shattered.

I've manage to get 16 pts after cca deduction.

people were consoling me that im eligable to apply for Tp.

But in my heart, i knew i couldnt get into tp design. Many people would want that course, it's the only poly that offers apparel design.

That kind of dejection still hits me today.

I tried to go Tp to ask, so desperate. JAE, JPSAE.

Got my course results, offered a place in Retail management in Tp.

Tho kind of expected, but still, SAD:'(

Went to NAFA, applied & took test. Pretty confident, cos the test was easy.

Instead when i received NAFA's letter weeks later, that kind of excitement..filled me.

However when M said i was rejected, i thought she was kidding me.

I snatched the paper, saw REJECTED. Sad,Depress,Emotional,Lost, engulfed me.

I dont know what to do except to crush the letter n cry.

M convinced me that alot of people live their life doing things they didnt like to... life is not as smooth sailing as you think,you cant get what you want always..

Aunt talked me into enrolling poly first.

I didnt want to go poly, n wasnt mentally prepared to go,esp for the course i didnt imagine myself @.

No choice, hurry filled the Tp package which i didnt even read/ touch. it was a week/5 days before i have to send in the forms.

Argh! so troublesome. health checkups, passport photo so many forms, which i didnt want to fill up. Thanks to mother,sister,M,dev to read n guide/fill up for me.

Im so reluctant to start school.

I remembered dev asked me: what if i didnt get into Tp design & Nafa? CHOI! (cos i desperately wanted design only)

So, this was what i did in the end. My super backup plan: Join Lasalle Portfolio Workshop, than apply to their school.

As you know, it works in the end!

After 2 weeks (5 lessons) of workshop, i had 3 weeks to prepare my portfolio.

Quit my job, focus doing portfolio. But procrastination killed me.

I thought i could rush in the last min -last week.

But suddenly Grandpa died, one week before deadline. Had to attend funeral n wake,..

left with last 2 days. Supposedly, im going to orientation @ Tp.

But i've invested im time to complete my portfolio instead.

Day b4 interview, superr nervous. Called Wanlin: i haven changed! haha (same voice n expression when im nervous!)

Actually i dare not hope too much. Cos, the higher you hope, the higher your disappointment is.

Than On friday 17, I've got my yellow paper! Accepted! :D

20th April, i started school with all. Attended lecture.. have a feeling of poly life.

One word: Great.

Still, im gona move on with my life. Poly? so not for me. Im still sleeping in lec. Boring~

From this experience,I conclude, I think i've learnt somethings within the past months.

- life is not smooth sailing, you dont get want you want in life

-every failure is a step closer to your goal

- expect the unexpected

-Procrastination really kills

-never fail to pursue what your heart tells you so BRAVELY. ( there are always people out there to pull you down)

In life, Alot of people dont pursue what they love, end up regretting, hating their jobs.

Some convince themselves they love what their doing, alot follow the flow.

While me, i decided to insist on my passion, i told myself i dont want to be like the above.

In fact, im actually scared & alone sometimes.

In this state of turmoil right now.

If what im doing is right? bcos it's my future afterall.

Should i go poly? ( cos of great friends? try out? NO. i should stay focus,not block my goals)

Maybe im feeling this because mostly all of my friends have started sch in poly, telling me how good their sch/course is.

Nvm, I'll tell you, I HAVE THE COURAGE TO DO WHAT IM DOING/GONA DO.

& maybe do better than you.

Perhaps after i've started school, i wont feel the same.

Who knows??:)

So,..Ps; dont hate me.(dont know why?)

& uncertainty is finally going. Bye.

Moving on, NEXT!

xoxo,

Serena

2009-04-17T12:40:00.000-07:00

ooooooo.. i've done room keeping just now.

& cleared 1000 emails? i cant believe myself.

owells, congrats to myself for getting accept into Lasalle!

im over the moon ya'll know? -hahahaha

after months of dilemma, going which sch, whatever shit.

i guess everything happens for a reason..

like not getting into tp apparel design & nafa..

i ended up in a better Art sch. humph!(;

Lasalle's much cooler too..

Life is never smooth sailing.. i took detours before i ended in Lasalle..

Like going tp (forget about it).. nafa taking test.. and then to Lasalle's portfolio workshop than to the interview.

I was super nervous about the interview the day before. Jittery n all-as usual i did not change.(wanlin knows!)

When i entered the room, sat with a group of people.

OMFG i was thinking, their portfolio looked professional whereas mine? Lord~

whatever.. we started to loosen up when we were suppose to chat n mingle..

till then, im not nervous alrdy. actually calm instead.

i think i did not score well in the portfolio but presentation & discussion..

cause the most impt thing is to sell the picture you have!

the discussion is about, What is creativity to you?

Ans: Thinking INSIDE of the box that stands out.

They thought i was going to say OUT of the box & interupt me. Humph!

There were 6 peeps in my group.. they came back with 4 yellow papers(american idol -lols!)

My was the first to be called! PHEW!!!!~

Till the last piece.. tense grew. The last 2.. sad.

However the ''teacher'' then took 2 more papers from her pocket! hahaha!

she's so humorous! All of us passed!! :D

The day b4 i was thinking.. poly's starting.. i haven done what i wanted to do for hols!

now, i have extension of hols till August, got to make good use of it.

Got to research N improve my Art. So.. anyone wana study? i can join you too!

& well, i went to Tp in the evening.. everybody kinda enjoying.. good for them.

unexpectedly met Joey! and we chatted till her bf came. Engine's school faster than AS.

Goodness.. waited so long but didnt mind..

caught up with some sec sch friends.. meeting them .. kinda nostalgic.

sighhhs. im going to sch on monday despite i dont know anyone. how brave.lols cos i didnt go for orientation.

Finally manage to caught up with Devina too.. Since so long since we've met. 2 weeks?

chatted all the way @ coffee bean. -to be continued tmr.

ps; found meaning to life.

xoxo,

2009-04-10T11:23:00.000-07:00

i cant sleep anymore, the moment i step into the room.

alone..shut in the darkness.

im actually a coward.

always talking about dying early, how i wanted to die? whole lot of crap.

i cannot imagine how lonely it might be to depart the world alone.

i dont wana shut my eyes, cos i see the pale image of him.

white, emotionless..

my heart aches when i thought about how much him went through.

the war.. that brought him to Singapore.. he's both wives left the world much earlier than he did.

than through the late years, had a stroke..immobilised..

under the previous 2 maid's care, had 2 fall which cause him depression, cant eat, feeding through tube.. admitting to hospital average 4 times per year @ least a week of stay.

i knew we had to be mentally prepared. the doctor said so.

but... i thought it's like another 'the boy cried wolf'.

some times we cabbed down, he was fine.

than that night, when i stepped into the room, i was horrified, & terrified.

he laid there, as white as a sheet. his mouth wide open, as if grasping for oxygen.

i know this time... he was going to leave us soon.

i didnt see his last breath.

our family surrounded him as we saw him went away slowly.. his oxygen level decreased gradually.

@ least he went off peacefully, afte all he'd gone through.

i'm proud of him. He was strong.

I knew the times i didnt treasure him.

even through he was so encouraging and supportive of me.

i know im a disappointment.

All i know, 'You'll only treasure when it's gone'..

now makes so much sense to me now..

i treat everything for granted, i know.

like the world revolve only around me, selfish.

i feel so rotten now.

I think i still need time reflecting, even through i thought i did..

my bubble just popped.

2009-04-09T12:08:00.000-07:00

Luckily i missed e party tonight, not in a camp..

byebye.

R.I.P

:'(

even the heaven is crying..

2009-04-08T13:52:00.000-07:00

im such a sin, not to the stage god cant save me..

but still.. i think im indulging in ''my world''?

hahahha sometimes dont we find it tough being you/me?

so who's the real us??

why so confusing???

jus enjoy & hav fun!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. im insanely crazy now

ps!it's 5am! &i dont wana sleep @ all:D

2009-04-06T22:15:00.000-07:00

i dont know what to blog about.. but wana blog. (stupid)

what have i been doing? -forgotten

how's life?- dont bother

how i plan to do? -f everything up

what's the point of me living???? -slash myself &die

hahahaha, no courage to die yet.

THIS IS A RANDOM POST.

off emo-ing.

ps; emo-ing is so unattractive.

2009-04-03T12:32:00.001-07:00

sometimes when you're bored..

you do quizzes.

it may seem stupid, only for bored souls..

but hey! sometimes you can get to know/ discover yourself better.

well, i just did!

im enlightened:DDDDDD

2009-04-01T12:58:00.000-07:00

siaosss. long time since i've blog.

forgotten or lazy?

wells, update sooooon!

not now, it's early!

2009-03-23T00:37:00.000-07:00

fuck, not a single day w/o quarreling.

i seriously cant tolerate, no longer.

we dont even wana see each other when we are so close.

Woke up early, cos of renovation.

Want me to get out of the house, when im soo fucking lack of sleep.

I've not get any goddamn sleep over the past few days of mid night oils.

I could even sleep in the fucking hot room w/o the windows open & fan on.

The renovation took place in the next room, a sliding door apart.

They hack the walls & drilled, my soul didnt react.

Morning alarms blast right next to me couldnt wake me up.

Im so tired everything, i need a break...

seems so far away.... ....

2009-03-18T22:16:00.000-07:00

wahahahaha,

i love MAC..! (not macDonalds)

There are so many applications that i'll never get bored already.

From, music -pictures-movie-whatever you name it..

Plus the graphics is really good!

Totally for someone who embraces art.

Gosh, lucky that i got it.

I was once so negative about Mac cos it's so not user friendly.

But overall i think it's a good buy still (:

I didnt get to explore it since last friday from IT fair till now..

like abt a week, fri-thurs.

Finally the time to touch it(:

But it's distracting! I got to do my research & start cracking on my work.

End up playing with the applications & doing other stuff-_-

Time is running out of me,

shouldnt procrastinate!!!!! plsssssss.

2009-03-18T21:29:00.000-07:00

SingaporeArtsFest is coming sooooooon:D

15 may-14 june '09

okay, 2 mths to it.

Anyone going, i wana tag along..

wahahahaa

Music, Threate, Dance.

will be going to a musical, Dancing On Your Grave by Cholmondeleys and The Featherstonehaughs UK

22-24 may, 8pm

It's for everyone who loves Dance, Music or Comedy(:

xoxo,

Serena

2009-03-16T20:21:00.000-07:00

More pics on facebook:D alot more..haha

So much fun. Met up with 2 cliques whom we've never met up tgt for soooo long.
Miss them all soooooo muchh.

Sunday,
Went for my workshop. It's colouring...which is my fave!
Teacher said my colouring is dynamic/strong so i had quite a hard time doing pastel colours.
Time flies.. went back home after to prepare.
& quarrelled with mom. grrrr..
Than off to meet steph &jas( chen minhwaaaaaaaaa) to the party.
Bloody long since 3 of us were tgt! :D
Anyway, it was so damn many people..
Left early to steph hse.
We camwhore for an hour plus with soooooo many pics.
wahahahaha &soo much fun.
Slept @ 6 woke up @ 10.
Than left her house to school to take my cert with clidue 5!
( im so dirty cos i wore the same clothes ) hahaha

@ school, teachers were not there.
So we camwhored alot too..
Miss those days spent with them. @ the toilet...
Laughters..... sighs.
4e5 class classroom...

At last.. didnt want to get back home cos i thought______.
But i got to rush..

I miss these 2 cliques.. having so much fun when we were tgt:D
Hope we can meet up sooooon again.

Got to rush now..
Tues: last day of work!!!:)
Wanted to go for the morning shift so that i'll be working tgt with Tiff.
End up woke up @ 9am..so slept back till 10 plus after mummy left house.
Didnt talk to her since sun. humph.

xoxo
Serena

2009-03-14T09:51:00.000-07:00

BUZZ BUZZ BUZZ zzzzzzzzzz.
Busying all the way.
I've still got homework to do ..
Out early the morning than work @ night..
''walao eh' (inside joke), wenqiang &tiffany keep telling me the time, every 5 mins interval!
Stupid,heart sank everytime i hear the time cos i thought it's gona close soon. Freakkkkk
Home late, got to do essay..
photos.. & sketching...
Omg, im wasting time here & watching tv.
Guess i'll have no sleep tonight.

It's good afterall.. (:

2009-03-12T10:14:00.000-07:00

I hate myself for being a BIG procrastinator.
Love to dragggggggggggggg things on. SUCK.

Took a freagging lux cab this morning. Worst than mers.
The meter starts @ $5, jumps 30 cents quickly. WTF.
Luckily it's to tm, if it's to work, .. plus ERP, *faints*.
To dentist and to see furnitures. :!
Than to work.. was told that the jap boss son has landed singapore & probably come.
So.. busying folding clothes neatly & wearing an idiotic smile on my face. LoL
Stupid Danny began to throw his authority every where .
Than the 'son' came. Not as young as i thought... Bet he's dad's older alot.
Break time, off to sale! :DDDDDDD happy buys.
Time always pass so slowly after break. 4 hours seemed eternity..
Suddenly, Dev & hf appeared. Woah.
Slacked super alot even though it's busy.
Due to IT fair, it's filled with people today:/
I was reminded by 'some people' about the time , time and again..
Which suck, cos i dont wear a watch, or either lock my phone in the locker so i cannot see the time. I just cant face reality..
Later when they went, JiaQi came! wanted to go home tgt but...
Cousin Cherylene came to see me from home, to go home tgt..
Long time since i've seen her. Missed her alot.
In conclusion, all surprises come on the same day!
Im selfish, i want them all spread out. hahaha

Talked about happiness.
Are you happy?
Realised im not. :( esp during the hols.
What do you want Serena?

Anyways, completed half of what im supposed to do.
Out early and back late.
Hectic days coming, but i sort of love it.
Makes me occupied:DDDDD
Time check 2am.
Waking up @ 8am (my only off day for the week!)
Kay, i took sunday off though..

xoxo!

2009-03-11T11:17:00.001-07:00

yes, almost done with stuff.. like, resignation letter!
Hmmm, i taught the new staff today.
Feels good to be superior over another.Im like the senior(:
Anyway that guy is cool luh, big ear holes & tatoo.
Thats not the point. LOLS.
Point is he shared about his generation kind of life.
HAVOC, sounds fun...
Music too.. Everything seems 'fiercer' in the past.
Haha, like how there were no barricates during gigs in the past & people got to beg him not to get up the stage to snatch limelight, & beg him to stand @ the back always!
We were both from Christian family, ended up #%$^&#$&!! (he's funny!)
His parents were so creative to name him Gideon. Interesting~
Another thing, Graphic designing. Cool.
*he's the guy that will scold manager if he scolds him. HAHA

Adison- hope he'll be visual merchandiser one day..
Bet he's youth was a blast as well..

Weiguo- hope he'll be successful in working in the casino..
Meet those rich taitais, & have the chance of being gigalo. LOLS.

This post is to rmb the people whom will eventually forget &not meet. :/
This post is sort of reminder!
People come in & out of your life, it's just the duration.
Life with it, face reality!
&&&dream big! cos it'll come true((((((((((((:

2009-03-08T20:19:00.001-07:00

I've been working for not a month, everything is like so screwed up.
It's more than just folding clothes and stuff,
i've got to do the stocks, serve the customers, everything neat &proper.
Stocks- stock take, pack neatly to store room, display, censor tag
Customers- Check stock, Ist, reservation, alteration, ..
@ all times- FOLD THE CLOTHES.
WTF. It's endless... how to do all @ the same time?
& i've got to beware of customers- rich so i must treat them like kings&queens.
They can complain about me any time like yesterday.

Customers who shop there are like business man, (mens department)
Because the company brand is- no brand so ..it's good?
People in Japan go for no brand cos it's about style and it's more ex too.

The customers are eye candy too (;
Many artist like to shop there, i saw Utt ytd :D
& _____,_____! haha, knew it.
People like them will shop in places like there.
hurried out of their sight. lols

Anyway, so what it's a big company?
Bullshit, the headquarters ... !@!$&^*(*& (shake heads)*

Gona work later when it's raining now.
Such nice weather to emo &sleep.
Tendering resignation sooon!
hahahahahaha:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Off w/o mc, changing shift w/o proper procedures, customer complain!
so f-up. LOL

2009-03-03T09:23:00.000-08:00

I miss my secondary school days.
I have to look forward to exams, o levels.
Waking up early everyday, preparing to go to school.
Every thing seems to be in a routine, @ least well planned with an aim.
Surrounded with friends and teachers, showering concern for you.
Now that live has moved on, people in jc are busying, most are waiting for poly to start, working.
What about me?
Im sad. I afraid to bother people who are occupied with their life, working hard in studies or living.
Or maybe in just afraid of judgemental people,
laughing @ me for being a pathetic soul.
I hate to face reality, who does?

I have to wear a fake smile which make me sadder:(
Emotions sown in my heart.
I dont know how to spell it out.
I dont know where to begin.
I dont want to think about it.
But it's not sth i can avoid & hack care.

Im told to stay calm & cool, i did.
But my heartaches more.

Do you know my agony? :'(
Bet i cant sleep tonight, how to work later? MC.

Cries &screams
Serena

2009-02-10T08:15:00.000-08:00

Im good @ avoiding &escaping from my troubles.

I hated it, but i finally overcomed it.

I hope i'll do better in future.

I realised i've been super anti-social day after day-slap self x2

Omfg, i didnt talk almost @all today :x

(Dont tell me im actually anti-social always)-_-

Anyway, I've got to change.

I got to find back me!

God bless me, i'll change for good.

&bless me with good sleep every night.

Anyway, today was FOB concert.

It was okay, other than it was sweaty, i felt as if im in the sauna.

xoxo,

Serena

Edited one hr later,

why is it when i feel im tired enough to have a good sleep but i still cant???????!

Frustrating.

2009-02-01T06:36:00.000-08:00

Glad that this CNY, i spent lots of time with my family:D
Today, we went to Tan Tock Seng hospital to visit a relative.
Than off to Sushi Tei @Paragon(best outlet-i feel).
The Sashimi is fresh unlike other Jap restuarant.
I love Sashimi & cold soba!

Shopped with mom. There's always reason to shop.
Before CNY, you shop for clothes,
after CNY, you shop cos there's post CNY sales.
Whatever~
Bought mostly purple clothes, cos when i asked mom, she will say purple cos it's her fave.
Duhhhhh.

Tmr is the first day for JC, &im excited. HaHa
Crappppppppppppppp

2009-01-31T09:49:00.000-08:00

I suddenly miss school so much.RANDOM!

Caught the Bride wars finally today@ cineleisure.

Best to watch it with your best friend which i did, Devina.

Sometimes there's an extraordinary bond between two people-best friend.

I truely believe. Will i ever find another friend so close again?

When i start school again, carrying the same bag as me, liking almost everything the same before we even met?

No, i dont think so. Cos secondary school is where one will find their best friend, i believe.

It's the period where two people go through their puberty period tgt, thats when you'll grow up.

This is the period where many first times were tried tgt.

Therefore it's the most memorable times where two friends share which made them best friends.

The show touched me! HaHa

I want my best friend to be my bride's maid!

Im lucky to have a best friend always there for each other:DDDDDD

Through sometimes best friends do get into serious fights, but that makes the bond stronger uh!

xoxo,

Serena

2009-01-30T10:21:00.000-08:00

Hope everyone had a Happy CNY!

Well time to blog now.

First day- ran 6 places as usual, last place was midnight movie, Love matters.

Second- friends house &to my home! Better than expected, majong &daiti.

I kept winning! lady luck was with me, but i didnt gamble.

There were lots of people came visiting my home.

End up we played cards in the room.

Than, off to town to chill till early morning.

Third day- went back school for AWHILE, than off to kbox

Fourth&Fifth day- stayed @ home watching WHOLE of Little Nonya while mom's friends came too. NERD! ha ha

Well school posting was out too, im posted to _________________.

All i can say is Fated. (:

Pics are in facebook!

xoxo,

Serena.

2009-01-27T10:21:00.000-08:00

i miss my blog thats all.
Well, CNY was better than expected(:
update soon!

2009-01-24T08:47:00.000-08:00

Nothing special as usual, except when i went out,

feels like people are staring @ my lips.

Im i paranoid or really?????? beats me.

Recently been shopping around Fareast, Forever 21, Charles&keith in town.

&i have my Charles &keith member card already!!! yipeeeeeee

Thanks to Dev Hf &me buying a bag each.

In future,

I wish my wallet will be full of credit cards instead of membership cards. lol

& people will have my shops' membership cards(:

*dreaming; drooools.

xoxo,

Serena

2009-01-22T23:15:00.000-08:00

WARNING: GROSTEST PEEKTURES

Thursday: 22/01/09

I fainted &fell on my face.

The result= disfuigured mouth & a hole below my lips.

Why did it happen before cny?!

Today is the second day &its worst than before. Even my upper lips are swollen &numb already.

WTF, even drinking water is fucking pain.

Whats more brushing teeth &washing face. Fuck.

Later that day, while walking up the stairs, i tripped &almost fell on my face again.

Tried to grip onto the floor with my toe,

ended up my toe was fucking pain &i had to drag my foot home.

My toe= internal bleeding-purple toe

SUCKS big time. Now i've got to stay @ home because of my mouth. FUCK.

Before my upper lips swell- front view
the ulcers on my lips- the braces cut my lips &tore my skin

Im not eating sausages! It's my lips from top view.

The white/yellow/red thing are the ulcers.

I swear it's fucking pain.

My upper lips numb, lower lips pain, my tongue ulcers due to my braces.

God bless me.

Wednesday:21/01/09

Was hanging out @town again ,WA.

spend alot @2 shops so stopped @ Paragon coffee bean.

Coffee bean holds fond memories of when Dev &i were mugging for O's.

Esp @tm & T2 airport, we used to study after sch & overnight @the airport.

That was when 4 shots of espresso couldnt beat my sleep.

Now that exams are over, it's Starbucks.

So maybe in future meet up @coffeebean to study uh.
Anyway, Paragon coffee bean sucks even through Paragon it's like some 'high class' place.

But the hygiene, i'll give it a Fat C.

When i saw the housefly eating the cake, i told the manager & he simply took the piece of cake out instead of getting rid of the fly, allowing it to eat other cake. Ew.

&when the staff came back, She didnt know about the cake & place it to the original place.

This explains why sometime's we have tummyaches even through we thought we did not eat unclean food.

Back to topic, conversational topics for dev&i are never ending.

That night we talked about Boys *laughs.

Flashbacking on those heart flattering &tormetting days.

Friday: 23/01/09-today

I just told my mom about my lips after she kept probing me why didnt i go out.

''how to? Look @ my lips!''

Now she's rushing me to see doctor when i wanted a 'natural recovery'.

LOL

Later! ~

xoxo,

Serena

2009-01-20T08:35:00.000-08:00

It's time for neoprintsssssssssss.

It's been a trillion x9756865287024 years that i've taken neoprint &our first time tgt:D

I love this peeksure best, cos it's funny (&my shirt-*smiles)
Both of us town-ed, my third day straight in a week!

We bought her stuff, walked twice to Fareast again(haha)&then subway for dinner @cineleisure.

There, we saw Paul Twohill. His hair longer than ever, still as cool.

I rmb he was my fave contestant @Singapore Idol! (laughs)

I didnt buy anything today, i need to thrift &feel richer to buy my Armani the next time.

-i still cant get over it.

Well, my teeth is pain now cos it's tighten.

&iwana sleep earlier &have sweet dreams.

I dont wana dream about being chased &i jump off the building again.

xoxo,

Serena

I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind.

2009-01-19T09:50:00.000-08:00

I appreciate that the internet is so fast today.
Wells, i've rejected the JPSAE audition this morning.
& than, ... to town(love it)
happy with my buys, which i bought the wallet for only $50 after discount & 6 of my taka $10 vouchers! what a steal.
The vouchers were made to good use though, initially i thought of buying a ultra big forever friends bear. HaHa, i still want it though.
Ahemmm, *hints* (:

Later had dinner @ pastamania when Hf joined us.
I haven had a drop of water since noon. -****ing thirsty
We walked all the way to Paragon hoping to meet Wanlin by luck &we really did!
Managed to catch her after work to say hi&bye. LOL
&finally off to drink...............COFFEE. lol
@Gloria Jeans. We had fun laughing our ass off cos i kept imitating dev. HaHa
realised that 4 of us might be in different school already(from our sch choices)..
Sighhhhhs, even though we were in diff class, we still hung out tgt during breaks in PRSS.
So now, we will still make it a routine uh?
Till we grow, &accomplish our pact yeah?

Got to wake up early tmr to go dentist.
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
cos i've missed 2 weeks already, which means.....
i've got to delay another 2 weeks to take out my braces eventually!
cant wait to smile with my teeth :) &say byebye to my brace face!
Anyway, Braces are cool still.

HaHa, wthhhh.

I keep receiving mails from Navy, Air force, &now, Army! to join them

*laughs!*

xoxo,
Serena

2009-01-17T07:24:00.000-08:00

Woah, JPSAE is super efficient.

I submitted ytd afternoon, &this morning, i received a msg from Tp that im shortlisted for interview!

I dont know if im happy, sad. Im just had mixed feelings &confused.

Anyway, im gona rush a portfolio out &do whatever i can this few days.

xoxo,

Serena

2009-01-16T07:25:00.000-08:00

Im seriously in a dilema now.
I was happy after submitting my JAE, &JPSAE.
Then, after going NAFA for the open house.
My mind started to waver, -should i go nafa?
Touring around the school is so amazing, throughout, Steph&I were like-''wow,so cool''
The environment is so conducive for learning.
The course structure is, for the first one &half yr,
we'll be learning fashion design & merchandising &marketing.
Later we'll either focus on designing / merchandising&marketing.
During the third year, it's an open project- time to be creative &do our own designs.
The internship is totally cool too.
Here's the listing of pros&cons:

serena says:
TP PROS:
serena says:
1.cheap
serena says:
2. friends
serena says:
cons:
serena says:
1. no aircon
serena says:
2. smaller
serena says:
3. not so high tech

today is crying day. says:
nafa pros and cons
serena says:
pros:
serena says:
1. conducive environment
serena says:
2. big
serena says:
3.high tech
serena says:
4.alot cool people
serena says:
5.more opportunties
serena says:
6.internship better
serena says:
7.trains us to be more creative
serena says:
& during the yr2,
serena says:
other country's art sch will com to audition for students to take
serena says:
reowned art sch
serena says:
the lecturers seems to be more exposed
today is crying day. says:
THE LECTURERES THERE ARE GAY
today is crying day. says:
hahahahah
today is crying day. says:
oky
today is crying day. says:
cons?
serena says:
foreign environment

Tell me howwwwww? :(
i dont need a portfolio to get into NAFA btw. (i have 4 passes)
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.

Velda in the pic

see my artistic shot while waiting for Steph{crap}

Anyways, it's been soooooooooo long since Steph &i met. Like 4 yrs?

But i kinda felt comfortable with her, she's still as tall!

Rmb then, when we wanted to buy same stuff &everything.

we were so cute then, .. now, the same. HaHaHa!

After Nafa, was out with her mom, and her for jap dinner, &shopped around.

Back now- dilema.

Which school should i go????

Advice please?

So far, my mom &wanlin says NAFA.

please drop a tag if you're reading, if not msn me(:

xoxo,

Serena

ps; rmb to get pics from steph.

2009-01-15T13:01:00.000-08:00

Its now freaking 5 am in the morning.
So ytd, i was @ esplande library deciding my 12 choices.
Than later to lessons, &after that,
Dev&I walked from cityhall to clarkquay.*
That was the highlight.
&we just sat by the river talking for so long.

Just now, Velda &I talked for soooo long that my hp ran out of batt,
so was my cordless phone. LoL!
We talked from 2-5AM.
WOAH, all the years accumulated just to talk today, about..
how we are destined to know each other somehow, & its true!
Thats so coooool.
We've probably met once when we were young.

Well, it's 5.10am now, i'm suppose to accompany her to tp later @9.30, lol!
&then, i'll submit my JAE &JPSAE form there too.

xoxo,
Serena

2009-01-14T08:43:00.000-08:00

I've found another good reason why i should take apparel design&merchandising,
cause this course combines all my interest,
where i can also learn retail management, &marketing for designers.
It's a package!

Liangwei said that i sound desperate to get into this course.
HaHa, well, i am &very indeed.
Cos knowing that im a very fickle person,
this is the first time i want sth so much for so long.
The strong desire in me keeps me going, -this feeling is just so amazing.
I've never thought whether i would succeed in this line or not.
It's just that we only have one youth,
i wana live my dream & pursue it so that i wont regret in future.
I believe that anything can happen when you dream big, &make it happen.
Many successful people are like that too.
So i'll never miss a day without daydreaming (: {excuses}

And i wana go Tp because i'll see more familiar faces-friends reunion
&everyone's going there. LOL
I dont wana go to some foreign schools.

&well, for _ e _ _ a,
I hope your wish comes true.
{many cute guys in your course}
HaHaHa, keeps me laughing.

xoxo,
Serena

2009-01-13T21:46:00.000-08:00

I know i shouldnt procrastinate now.
I should be producing something now.

''Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I would prayed I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway''

Coded from Kelly Clarkson-Breakaway.

2009-01-13T06:48:00.000-08:00

Hell, people shop to reward themselves.

I spend because im still dejected. (wtf?!@#%$)

Bought 2 pairs of foot wear,

a pair of heels from Charles &keith,

& a pair of slipper from M) phosis.

Heartaches* there goes my 100 bucks to happiness.

& dev &i sat @ Shokudo (city link mall) for lunch for 2 hrs! LOL

This morning, i was supposed to wake up @7.30 am to go tp.

But ended up, i cabbed there @11am. -.-

Anyway, spoke to the lecturer about my course.

Im still gona put that as first choice, to gamble that.

&a little kiasu-ness, im gona apply JPSAE & DAE.

What Dev said is true.. maybe i shouldnt go nafa/laselle.

But.. Sighhhhhhs. How????

Should i go other course in tp instead??

Hope i'll be called in for auditions in Tp &show that i have the burning passion in me.~

Seriously, im so not interested in the other course in other polys.

After ticking all the interested courses in all the schools, perfectly 12 choices.

8 from Tp, 4 from other schools.

Top 3 choices will be(accordingly):

Apparel Design & Merchandising
Retail management
Marketing

All from tp.

&yesss, i need someone to talk to about my choices!

xoxo,Serena

2009-01-12T08:09:00.000-08:00

Friends are those who rmbs you when you're getting results.

As i've said, i dont want my results to be 17-20.

Nightmare happened for me.

Sometimes im okay, sometimes im not.

@this range, i would feel emotionless.

That was why i cried to make me feel better.

Anyway, after getting the results,

3 sad souls + 1 contented soul went to 'celebrate'.

@Swensens with balloons.

We MUST go out again!

Than dev&i headed to SunPlaza park.

Swinging brings my mind @peace.

It felt as if im flying to the moon, esp with an ipod, closing your eyes, @night,

just imagine.

Than we were listening to songs while the chillin wind was blowing,

choosing the course we want.

Later, the gang came, peace was gone.

But they did entertained us some how.

&reminded us of those days.. hmmm.

Well, i still feel sad, cause im a disappoint to my family.

Yet they are always so supportive of me, makes me feel so bad.

I broke the family tradition of going temasek sec, than to temasek jc.

Fuck, i cant even get to TEMASEK POLY for the course i want.

Arghhhhhhh.

Stab me,

Serena

2009-01-12T07:36:00.000-08:00

Fuck, results showed that i hadn't put in enough hard work. Fuck.

Im fucking disappointed with myself, fucking hate how im feeling now.

I always hated this feeling, -empty &lost, whatever.

I have been a fucking loser since young until now i haven change my fate.

I've heard enough of consoles,encourages, but when will this fucking gona end?!

When will i fucking gona prove myself?

Im a fucker who knows how to cry &whin.

Im the fucking idiot who has no substance in me.

Im the fucker who only knows how to curse FUCK.

Because everything is so fucked up for me now.

On the brighter side,

I've improve grades over the prelims &my usual grades.

Eng-same

Chinese-same

Comb humans-4 grades

chem-5 grades

physics-3 grades

maths-3 grades

amaths-6 grades(since last yr)

whatever, im consoling myself.

There was once when i scored 47 pts for L1R5, last yr i think.

If you think im a fucking idiot, yes i am.

CROSS THIS PAGE OUT NOW!

NOW!!!!!!!

I never plan to regret how i spent those secondary school days.

It's fucking fun, but i paid a fucking price for it.

I can describle my life in secondary school like,

the race between the hare & tortoise?

I played the role of HARE.

Keeping my fingers cross of how much i scored.

2009-01-11T06:29:00.000-08:00

Omg, the day has finally come.
Last month was like'' still long.. ''
Now it's like, ''TMR!''

HaHaHa,

I wasnt really nervous till everyone is wishing good luck, which made my heart thump more!
Right now i can imagine..

Mdm cheng solemn face while giving us speech.
mr Neo/mrs Tan's face behind the table while i walk towards them
All the sec 4's looking @ our expression &predicting our results(just like how we did last yr)

Friends swarming tgt to hug &cry

Peeps, esp the sec 4's please prepare tissues for us, cos we're gona cry regardless of anything.
Im so afraid that i'll get 17pts(my fave no) or more! not 20+ pleaseee,
just like how i visualised it before i've gotten my chem prelim results.
17/100 (i know it sucks) so you should know how i feel now?
I dont wana feel emotionless too, just like how i've gotten my O'lvl chinese.

I just wana get into my fave course in tp.
Peaceeeeee.

God help those who helps themselves right?
By tmr i'll know if i've worked hard or not.

xoxo,
Serena

Ps, bless you all too friends!:D

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2009-01-11T05:51:00.001-08:00

2009-01-10T01:30:00.000-08:00

I've been thinking alot, this holiday, i've met many different people who just walked in and out of my life.
Some were interesting& amazing, some of them i just wana forget about them.
They are the people who crossed my life, suddenly, i thought about my dear friend Wanlin.

Since sec2 you've transfered into PRSS, you've brought wonderful memories into my life too.
We definately experience the extremes tgt, as in from the worst to the 'best'. (HaHa)

Sec 2, we spent hours of time after school tgt hanging out talkin about crap.
You were there for me too when i had some family problems.
We've got into trouble with Mr ow so many times &have to go to detention halfway during lessons to write reflection because of running out of class during Home econs. LOL!
Our friendship was smooth sailing, &i've trusted you so much. (ahem you know what im talking about)
Finally, @ the end of the year, we got into the same class, 3e5.

Sec3, attended so many camps tgt! &still getting into trouble with mr ow &me, with ms chua too.
Second half of the year was like a nightmare. (some people will know it)
Maybe because of that, we drifted abit too.
In between, we had some unspoken misunderstandings that carried forward to sec4.
Finally, when the nightmare was over, it was o'level year.

Sec4 was the most memorable year for me, it was 360 degrees changed for me.
We've become a nerd! Studying hard, swear never to get into trouble with Mr ow-no more detentions &not to be late.
Still, we were late sereval times when we go to school tgt! HaHa
While studying hard, we almost couldnt communicate well with each other.
It's all my fault, for my depression.
On days when i've suddenly went MIA from school,
you were there for me too, with other friends &teachers even though i was almost unreachable still.
Later, the day before Physics prelim MCQ paper, when i called you over to study tgt,
I poured out everything to you.
You're the first to know me so well for the first time.
We had a heart to heart talk in the dark, crying tgt our hearts out, &a warmth hug.
Finally, it's like the sunshine after rain, we became the bestest friends again.
Only you who knew about my blog then&thoughts.

Now, it's always during schooling days that we were so close, BFF,
But during holidays, we spent so little time tgt.
Nonetheless, we can catch up easily, unlike those days.

Well, i still hope we will continue be BFF, even after the results, when you'll go tj.
We still can meet up cos we live so near:D
{This peekture is taken on the day we had a wonderful talk.
(&i suck in it cos it's after facial!)}

Anyway, i dont deny that im missin you,Wanlin.
(making you smile behind the screen-im such a great friend!)
*laughs*
Tmr we'll be meeting &the following day to get results.
Bless you!

&love ya.
(im not being mushy, cos sometimes we have to let our friends know how much we appreciate each other yeah?)

xoxo,
Serena

Ps, will post about other impt friends as well! :)
&what a long post.

2009-01-09T07:22:00.000-08:00

I update without peektures first.

Yesterday, was out with Velda, which we were suppose to get her her CNY clothe.

Instead i've gotten mine instead.

Im so freakin sad that i might avoid shopping already cos everytime i resist my urge, makes me wana cry.

This year new year resolution is to save,save,save!

Later, had istavin gathering! Awesome, cos it's like ages since we've been there.

So, pretty much of catching up with each other about our lives.

&mostly realising our dreams and everything.

Also it's so cool to find out about Ayu's opportunities.

Meanwhile we had some food around to munch while talking.

I miss coach Rosaline so much too, & coach Joyce! awwww

They are amazing guidelines for our lives.

Finally huifang &i exchanged our CHRISTMAS presents. HaHa though its over.

Well, im excited to go back istavin for up coming programmes!

Today, i went to Tp open house, (like, so many times already)

And for the freakin first time, Im so damn fucking scared for my results!

Cause i realised that my course is 14 pts for last year cop.

This year?! i hope it's higher.

Heard that the course is popular, & im super @ disadvantage cos i didnt take art!

Fuck,Fuck, Fucking sad.

Cause i know i may not make it, given my prelim results which suck BIG time.

&she told me it's impossible to appeal cos why would they wana take me in out so many people?!

sighhhhhhhhs, i have other alternatives though, but still, i wana go tp!!

My heart is there, my mind is there, just that my body isnt there now.. (crap)

Meanwhile, while is just ranting @tp about this,

some students were playing music-guitar &singing.

Melts my heart & sat there for so long which made me feel so much better.

saw quite number of familar faces there, Yanhui was there too! -with her eugene like 1 yr already, they're so cute tgt.

Bumping to Eugenia and wz, we left tgt with their friends to makan.

Than cabbed to Eastpoint with wz,dev,me. Since so long that we 3 were tgt.

Missed those days, this year, wz must work hard already!

Later during class, we surprised Yanpeng there. HaHa

Wells, i was so fucking sad throughout.

Arghhhh, i hate to be emo shit.

Hope i can get >14 pts.

Ps, i usually dont curse, but forgive me cos im fucking sad:(

2009-01-07T09:08:00.000-08:00

Hell shitttt.

Results will be out on 12Jan.

HaHaHa, i'll probably start to feel really scared on the day itself-12am mon.

Right now? Enjoy your ass off.

Dont worry be happy!

Love Serena.

Current song (mood)- Untouched, The Veronicas.

2009-01-06T07:11:00.000-08:00

!#%#$^#%!

I seriously think that its o not wise to come up with assignments,for ex-convicts.

Cause it's like carry paper &pens around telling people that i'm an ex-convict so you should pity me, (support me-sounds nicer) and buy pens from me.

I know they pluck out great courage to tell the world that they're ex-convicts &want acceptance, but couldn't it be other ways?

As in those organisers should propose other kind of assignments, like hiring these people to work &earn steady income instead of selling pens to people &get $2 for every 3 pens sold @$5.

Esp when they come forward &target @us who are also students.

Do they know that we are freakin not working, &some students have to work 1 hr for that $5?

This is so unfair! Even if my parents are millionares, i still think i shouldnt be spending $5 to help them.

It's like we are approving them of selling pens forever!

They have well able-ed body & so i think i would rather donate $$$ to those handicap.

Pleaseeee, our society shouldnt be so shallow!

We should accept everybody even if they're ex-convicts.

Com'on, who has done anything wrong in the past?

Just that it's not so serious thats all, &more importantly we learn from mistakes.

So lets embrace these ex-convict as one of us, cos if we dont change our mind sets,

the younger generation will be influence by us &this is a vicious cycle.

So today, i'll take as i've done a good deed.

But sad to say my post will not make a huge impact as if they will stop selling pens. Lol

However i just want the people around me to feel the same way as i do.

Who knows one day you've become a CEO of some big companies, or a boss of a small shop,

maybe you will consider these ex-convict to work with you too just like how i will if im a boss.

It's every small actions that makes big difference.

We should make positive influence on others too today!

HaHaHa, feels like i've just written a ss essay. Lol!

&I dont know if i should be happy/ angry/ sad.

Cause i bought 4 bottoms today, not to forget 4 shirts ytd plus randoms stuffs.

What a match!

Someone teach me the art of thrift please.

I think i might as well work, but i wana have personal free time as well.

In conclusion, i should find a part time job. Best from 11-5pm.

Keep a lookout for me! thanks.

love,

Serena

2009-01-05T08:15:00.000-08:00

Well, caught Twilight finally.
I was toally mesmerized into the movie esp by Robert Pattison's alluring eyes.
The role he's protraying is awesome, which made this show worth watching.
Other than that, i still think that the book is better, -detailed &polished.
So im gona finish it!!
Gosh, no wonder all the girls will go ga-ga over him, he's Hot stuff.
However i beg to differ it's because of his character which made him shine, together with Kristen Steward. They're such perfect match!

After the movie, we went to wheelock's place and i've got my ipod cover.

Later to Fareast &Whisma.

Seriously not in the mood to shop, nothing appeals to me.

We practically covered the place in a short span of time &trained to bugis.

I've got my pay!! The comission is not too bad after overall:D

Im so not gona step into bugis for a long long time!

Oh people, results will be out this Friday.

Bless you all!

But why am i not as nervous as everyone esle?

Anyway what is done cant be undone.

Good luck peeps! Cant wait to see ya'll too!

xoxo

serena

2009-01-04T10:15:00.000-08:00

Cheers for my new blogskin &tagboard.

Btw, i love those colors.

How i wish my room were those colors, which will be pretty soon!:D

Anyway, today was lazy sunday!

Blasting the radio &reading Twilight in the room.

I thought i could finish it before i catch it tmr, when actually it's only 1/4 when i started.

HaHa

Is there really such good looking as describle in the book person?

*-*

xoxo, serena.

2009-01-03T10:48:00.000-08:00

Sighs, im feeling a little bit of lost/empty/__.
I hope i'll not slip back to depression, hell not!
sighs, sighs,sighs!

I guess i really need to go into hibernation.
wells, im gona be back with a bang pretty soon!
At least i hope to.

It's good to spend some time alone, to reflect.

2009-01-02T07:15:00.000-08:00

Apart from air pollution. The fireworks were spectacular.

It was a heartwarming 2008 to end with &2009 to start with.

Certainly, this year, new year with a brand new attitude!

Love, Serena(:

2008-12-30T20:34:00.000-08:00

Its so hard to surf the net cos there are so many people using the wireless now!
Screw it.
Anyway, im going out later.
So i wana wish everyone Happy New Year!!!
Good bye 2008, Hello 2009.
Bless you all!

Love Serena:D

2008-12-30T09:09:00.000-08:00

My mind is in a state of turmoil now.
Seriously, i think i screwed everything up recently.
&no words could describle how im feeling now.
I hope its a process we have to go through while growing up.
So, lets see, New year is coming in 23hrs.
Everything will be refresh , &bad memories will be at the back of my mind:D

Ohwells, yesterday was ____.
First, i was at St james. However the music was sucky, &we had to ___.
Therefore decided to go howl at the moon @1 plus.
Its kinda late already through, but we didnt pay to enter!(opps!)
The music &atmosphere was definately way better than St James x7.
We hitted the dance floor but i guess the music was okay.
Through it was only like 1 hr, at least it ended in a good note.
So we had drinks from the broken vendor on our way to Swensens.HaHa
Then, we had some chats till 5am, (cos we wana take the first train)
so we joined a random group of guys who were partying there too later in front of Taka,
for a game of Hide &Seek. In the early morning! HaHaHa
3 seekers &7 gona hide.
It was pretty interesting through we always got caught first.-mark,dev,me

Anyways, dev came over to stay &we reached home 8am-_-
&we're out again at 2plus.
To get Eileen's present to her birthdy party @downtown east chalet.
After that _________________________.

I just wish i could forget everything that happen,
Hope everyone will forget about me too.

Till then.

2008-12-28T09:35:00.000-08:00

They say blogging kills time, shall do so than.
Idk if i can sleep today, cos i freaking slept the whole day today!
Down with sore throat &cold, &stupid mens came!
Grrrr!!

Fyi, I'VE QUIT MY JOB!
Damn happy uh! Spreading my joy to people!!
Cant help it, its overwhelming!!:D

So tada! im super free now, i hope people will ask me out!!

&New year's cominggg!
i got to set my new year resolution!

currently, im surfing net for some cool websites!

2008-12-26T19:18:00.000-08:00

This year Christmas was great,!
Went to the hot&sweaty party, makes me feel like im in a suana!
than to Simpang fo supper! &sat there like 3hrs?(didnt sleep &went to work aft that)
&mostly because of the great gifts from everyoneeee!:D
sorry, i'll give you peeps the presents soon kay, cos there are 12 days of Christmas!!
This year, dev and i had some kinda telly-party uh,
cos we prepared for each other about the some gift-
MAKE UPS!
She's got me a set of eye shadow, 'Brown':D nail polish &my fave cherry red lipstick!
Thats so cool, feels like she can read my mind(wanted the lipstick)! cos we didnt tell/hint each other what we wanted.
I got her a fantastic MAkeup eye shadow set!
Hey babe, now we have all the eye shadow colors!! Cool uh?!

&Wanzhuang catch me by surprise when she also gotten me a skarf!
Love it! &i didnt expect that coming, &its really great!:D

Can you feel the love this Christmas?
Thank you everyone!-the powerpuff girls too,for coming to my shop uh!
i'll look for you girls too!:)))))))))))
&my collegues who left &are leaving soon:((( enjoyed the time working with you! (dont know when i'll see you again:((()

Sighs, didnt have the time for my family this year:( so wana thk my sis for the gifts,she got it all right!:D

This week was insane, i had so little sleep throughout!
Even Zihui saw that in my eyes when she popped by the shop!
My eyes are freakin swollen &black!
I wana work, NO more!
cos, i've been standing so much, i could see my veins popping out!
Wtf! Im not yet old, &how can this be?!

So now, actually i was supposed to go for audition at YAC, but i backed out last min.
Think its not my cup of tea.
The song playing now is-

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS like a bitch I would know.
... ... .... .... .... ..... ...

Cause' you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight we break up, we kiss we make up
You! you don't really wanna stay no, but you don't really wanna go-oh
..................

HaHaHa, exactly what im feeling now!
so im gona meet cousin Cherylene for shopping instead!!!!:D
so long since we last went out tgt.*anticipating now*

Also got to arrange for me&lihui superrrrr belated birthday celebration.(HAHA!)

okay, till then, i'll be back to post.
Time check:11.45am
Meeting time:12.30pm
Im not yet bathe &ready!! shitttttttttttt!

2008-12-23T08:13:00.000-08:00

Slept at work today again.

Was at Zouk ytd, it was __________. (fill in the blanks yrself)

Before that in the morning, i was out with Wanzhuang.

The peektures are in her phone!-nice ones.haha

Shopped halfway for Christmas presents.

So today, i didnt manage to give you guys present, its ready!

But thanks for the presents!:D

Not yet open, should i wait for Christmas? HaHaHa

&so many things, so little time!

so many thoughts, hard to express!

This is so, soooooooo fraustratingggggg!!!

Someone pls STAB ME

2008-12-21T08:31:00.000-08:00

Sunday was hell eventful for me.
To cut the long story short, i went to my sis church to watch her skit which she starred in.
Her acting skills are superb! Way to go~:D
Also i saw many gays there.
They're like, so cute? Omg, some are hot too, lawyers, etc.
&i cant imagine them Gay! Way too cute uh.

Before that, i went to Tm with Mummy, like since so longgggg.
Hahaha, kinda miss that place since i left school.
While there, i bought an ipod! yayyyyyy!
How i wish i could get an iphone, but next june girl!
Now i have lots of space, i can watch movies in my ipod while working! HaHaHa
At Times, Mom bought me a book too.
(Take Action) A teenagers guide to be successful.
*laughs!*
im gona be one someday!

Later after service, which i love every Christmas cos it gives me the feeling of love!
Going church on Chrismas rocks.
Spread the love peeps! I cant wait for Christmas xchange! :D
Anyway i've not bought you guys presents. Dont worry, i'll get them later.
My budget this year, will be a 100 plus for friends and family.
Due to recession, its half of last year. Sigh.

Back to topic, i love the melody of violin now.
It's awesome with the Christmas carols! Love it.
Anyone can play that is Hot! HaHaHa

After service, back to work at 5pm.
I found a spot to sleep w/o taken by the camera!
weeee, was sleeping &hack the customers!
I dont give a damn, i wish they sack me or i quit.
Also i started to read Twilight, it's ______.
I love it.

wells, im gona download songs to my ipod now!

Tmr gona be way better than today! :D

Ps; you can get me bedroom accessories, or beautiful hangers for my accessories or sth from Precious thots:D
& tell me if you wana xchange gifts with me soon!

2008-12-20T10:37:00.000-08:00

This was last Sunday at the wedding dinner.

Hahaha, my unglam&ugly me! More on facebook.

We were just having fun uh, instead of the usual *smiles*.

Friday.

I didnt want to go to work. But still, the movie at night was my only moivation!

So i caught Nick&Norah's infinate playlist at Great Cathay.

The show is hilarious and cute!

I think its out of the norm from Wild Child &smogging.

Its four stars from me:D

Saturday.

Instead of the usual ''lazy Sunday'', mine was ''Lazy Saturday''.

I practically hang out with Lihui &Zolene at her house.

Before, i trainned all the way the Amk to meet Lihui.

While waiting for the queen's arrival, i shopped at Face shop!(spend again!-.-)

Also its my first time going Koven Heartland Mall, (haha) Im super gugu i know!

I also felt good laughing at Lihui's rantings!

Omg, super cute and more of funny! (im laughing now) HaHaHa

Lastly, her house is pretty near to my house on bus 45.

Time check: 3am

I need to leave the house at 9am to go and watch sister Chia in the Christmas act in church!

Toodles!

2008-12-17T08:54:00.000-08:00

For christmas, my wishlist is:

action city multi purpose dustin
gift-a-name ice-cream cone soft toy
a make up/accessories bag
full set of make up brushes
a set of comb&mirror
human resource to paint my room tgt with me(haha)
Still, a big big forever friend bear:D

haha, till then.

xoxo,serena

2008-12-17T06:38:00.000-08:00

Both of us wore caps out today! The problem when you wear it alone, you feel people are staring at you. HaHaHA(paronoid)

''We do not stop playing when we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing''

Highlight of the day was Haji Lane with Wanleng.

Super gugu cause its our first time there.

We walked &walked, asked for directions, &without knowing, we were already there.

Hahaha. The shops there are beautiful &prettyyyyyy!

Guess they are all local designers who sell their designs there?

The shops are all so vintage& i Finally saw where the toy museum is too.

Bought a shirt that reads ''Cheer up. Tmr's gonna be a brighter day''

Haha, i can wear that when im down. LoL

We settled at one of the shops for ice-cream treat.

Sundaes for ussss! Than camwhored.

Unfortunately for us is that i didnt bring my camera out in the rush!

And my phone is out of batt, so all we relied on was Wanleng's cam,Enhui(haha)

If not we could have taken pics everywhere.

Ohyah, my phone has 18messages over the night not read uh! Lol, highest record though.

At Kinokunya, i bought 2fabulous mags, Girlfriend &Dolly also a book, Twilight!

HaHaHa, finally its in my hands, after procrastinating for months to get it.

Than, im gona catch the movie:D

Ps, 1)i have mio tv now! haha

2)i can change my phone next june.

3)Yayyyyy, finally gotten my bangles from Mustafa! My sister got them for me:D

With love,

Serena

2008-12-15T08:43:00.000-08:00

Out to shop for Christams present, mostly for myself too.

HaHaHa

Anyway life's so mundane for me.

I need an injection for an exciting life.

I still believe hard work pays though, but in a long run.

So hang on people, those who are striving as hard as me.

haha

2008-12-14T07:48:00.000-08:00

These are to be continud from ytd post.

& i wana go Texas & Malaysia to shop badlyyyyyy!

Post to be continued with today later.

I think im wearing pink almost all the time!

HaHaHa

Later!~

2008-12-13T10:45:00.000-08:00

I feel damn great today, after shopping.

*wishlist updated!*winks:D

&i swear my feets are freakin pain now, cause even through its already pain, i wore my 3inch heels out today from 12pm-2am.lol

I also can conclude that my fave transport is Cab, cause i've been taking that like, most of the days? Hahaha

Today, first was a family photoshoot.

Than, shopping with mummy is the best! cause she pays for all:D

Now own my own scent by Paris Hilton, a eyeliner pencil from Bonjouris even through i love the one from Chanel! But its freakin 32 bucks so i got my at half the price.

Also, bought 3 dresses &2 tops , and a slipper:D

Yayyyyy! im so happy, so i treated mummy for dinner @Hongkong cafe. (it's the thoughts that counts)HaHaHa

I knda clique with the sales person from the fragrance department,

so i get an extra small bottle of Versace perfume! &heart trob watch:D

Finally, an unexpected gift is a CarloRino coin purse/wallet.

Well, im high to the moon already.

I cant wait to buy my laptop, & new year clothes,

And my Prada baggggggggg!

Ohyah, i met a guy from 4e3(dont know his name) at BHG working there.

I was so urgent for washroom that he brought me to the staff toilet when i said the public washroom was packed! Hahaha, Tks though idk your name.lol

Later, shopped till dev is off from work, we went to catch a movie @Cathay cineleisure.

Fate brings us together always, &i saw Wanleng!!

Took a peekture with her &her friend.(waiting for you to sent me if you see this:D)

Than off to catch,Angus, Thongs And Perfect Snogging.

Awwww, i just love the male lead character in the movie.

He's just so sweeeeeet:)

Cabbed home again, &now im here.

I guess i'll have sweet dreams soon.

Time check: 3.30am

(make up not yet remove, haven bath)

Later i have lessons in the morning @11am, &shucks, gona meet ____ Velda@ 12 pm*clash! &than gona rush home to get ready to attend a wedding dinner @7.30pm.

Im gona wear heels again, this time even higher,just lets my leg get well soon!

So im wearing flats later out.

I hope my red eyes get better soon too!

TOODLES

~~~

2008-12-11T08:17:00.000-08:00

its not yet Christmas, & i see Chinese New Year decorations. lol

Anyway, it sucks today, again.

3 eff-ing whores stole a blouse from my shop!

I can vividly remember their faces clearly. Screwthem.

I nearly cried lahhhh &wanted to quit.

Sucks, than i received a message from Joelyn that she's gona quit.

Which means, i can forget about quitting, cause first is Felicia, than her.

How to leave??? To compromise, im gona have a weekday off so its not so taxing.

Today was raining, so sales was affected.

Nevertheless, im still the top sales:D

&im gona love elene for the mags she brought for me!

So now im exposed to Jap fashion, Kawaii &Popteen.

FABulous:D

i will be bored, NO MORE in the shop.

Lastly, i still think i need more offdays, cos working is no lifeeeeee.

My boss is cool, cos some of the clothes are designed by her, which are loved by customers.

She is superrr friendly, &nice!

ps; now i know why wanleng coulnt find me the other day. (haha)

2008-12-10T08:04:00.000-08:00

Clothes &more.
Today dev came to me shop to surprise me, &i was indeed.
I was superrrrr bored then, &was reading.
So both her mom &her get to try on pretty dresses, &she one 1 from me!:D

Anyway, i was ultra bored &tired today, that i slept in the shop.
Lazy to get my ass off the chair to serve the customers.
Luckily when Jane came, i was doing something!
She scared the hell out of me &i freaked out! lol

I wana shopppppp!
Im so damn jealous of those people who came shopping.
Shouldnt i be the one getting served by the shop assistant instead of me serving?!
I couldnt help it, but to shop halfway during my toilet trip &to buy food.haha
Also, im freaggin sad that dev& i cant go out shopping together cause our off days are diff:(

Lastly, the new girl in my shop is Elene &she's 19.
I think we clique quite well cause time flies during our train trip home.
She's also into mags & we talked about our similar Japan trip.
Thats so cool, getting to know more about her(i hope so):D

Thats all folks!

ps; my leg is damn pain again.